i have not done this in a while but i needed somewhere to express myself. its unbelievable how much i miss you. i can’t fucking do this. i love you more than anything in the world and i don’t know where we went wrong. this is so stupid because im seventeen and i shouldnt feel this way but there is something about you. i love and miss everything about you. i feel like shit for losing you. i know it was my fault and knowing you will never be mine again is terrible. why cant you just forgive me? i forgave all your mistakes and you can’t forgive me? this is so hypocrytical of you. you dont give up on someone you love. asfter evrythiung you said to me im stilling willing to work things out. you are the one for me and no one else compares. yeah i hangout with guys, and i kissed someone else after we broke up but it means nothing. i only do that becvause you are always with girls. i never thought u would be okay without me and thats what hurts. knowing im miserable and your happy is terrible. i want to kill every one of those girls you hangout with because they make you happy and i can’t. that hurts. i always thought i made you happy and you really did love me and now i dont know what to think. i wish you could read this and realize how much i miss you. im so sorry for everything i did. i just wanted you to think iwas okay without you. tyler im not . i need you. i miss you holding me when i cry, or the way i fit between your should and chest when we slept. or the way my hand fit perfectly in yours. i miss you sitting on my feet when they were cold, and me leaning over the center console to lean against you in the car. whenever a country song comes on i only think of you, singing with me in the car. i miss rubbing your ears when you got mad. what i miss the most is you kissing my forhead and telling me you loved me. you said no matter what we would work things out and i was the one for you. what happened tyler?
